A miraculous story of Womb Twin Healing after years of misdiagnosis and mistreatment

Following the post below, here is an example of a 58 yr old womb twin survivor who literally went through hell and had to find her own way because, until Womb Twin Survivor syndrome was established by Althea Hayton a few years ago, being misdiagnosed with a dissociative disorder and thrown in a psychiatric hospital was how they treated the symptoms of her womb twin survivor syndrome. Many womb twin survivors have received shock treatments, heavy medications and loads of ineffective/wrong advice since therapists aren't trained specifically for this. Anyway, over time, her curiosity and alpha survivor spirit found its way through many modalities and years of self discovery leading her to the womb twin healing path just two years ago and already today she feels at peace because she knows what it is: she's a womb triplet survivor and that explains everything! So let's talk to her to find out more about her fascinating story: Can you tell us more about your history, your process and some of the tools you have used which have helped in your healing? "I knew from an early age there was another little girl living inside me, which is how I said it at age 6, and there was another strong bond with a male who seemed to be my triplet whose soul I believe followed me and got reborn into a boy I knew as a child but then died on me again. Throughout my life I have exhibited many of the same patterns other survivors do, like: Abandonment issues, separation anxiety, approval junkie, feeling nuts and out of control, misunderstood, eating disorder, suicidal attempts and feelings of extreme unworthiness, ambidexterity and a strong, curious alpha spirit. This questing spirit is what helped me find Althea Hayton's work and from there it all started to come together for the first time. The female presence living within me felt like another little girl exactly the same age as me. People remarked that I had an imaginary friend. I enjoyed having her around and I never questioned where she came from. Sometimes I would communicate with her in my mind and other times I would speak aloud to her, much to the shock of other people who might overhear and wonder what was wrong with me. Around this time, I became aware of twins through reading books that were geared to young children. The first time I read about twin sisters, I was both intrigued and jealous. I was missing out on something, but I didn't quite know what. I felt lost and lonely for a good part of my childhood, even though I did have friends, but I was starting to feel like an oddball most of the time. By seventh grade, I was really feeling weird and there were a lot of voices in my head, most of which said horrible things. I was really starting to hate myself. I had tremendous abandonment issues, feelings of unworthiness, and then at age 12, I developed anorexia. Had major mood swings and then unbelievable bouts of depression. I went to college, but in the very beginning of junior year, I started having a major nervous breakdown, and ended up leaving in March, to be hospitalized in a mental facility for several months. Ended up having 20 shock treatments, which i must admit did help...for awhile. Started cutting myself shortly thereafter, and I would get a rush afterwards. Why was all this happening? Was I never going to get better? I don't think I was meant to be alive...I wanted to die...I thought about death and dying all the time. I had told a bunch of kids in 7th grade that I had a twin sister who died before we were born. I could see her there...she was facing me, and we held on to each other for dear life....but she slipped away. It was all my fault! I took all the food, all the space, everything! I forced her to die, and our brother, too. I was a horrible person for doing all that, so of course I deserved to suffer in every way possible!” Never felt like I was good enough, period. I was too fat, not pretty enough, worthless. I felt like my parents were planning to abandon me at the age of 6. It is interesting to note that I had several specific watershed times in my life, the first one occurring around age 6 when I started having recurring nightmares about a man in my neighborhood, that something bad was going to happen to my dad (I was definitely a Daddy's Girl, I saw my mother as some competition and my nemesis) also around 6 was when i started reading the children's books about twins and became utterly fascinated and obsessed with twins and multiple births in general. I was very interested in pregnant women and thought it would be the greatest thing in the world to carry a baby in my stomach. The second watershed period was at age 12 when things were becoming crystal clear in my mind's eye about my sister and the smaller fraternal brother that was there, hovering above us, much smaller and not nearly as developed. He was going to leave first, but not without making a tremendous, indelible impression on me forever". What specific symbols, mantras, rituals were most helpful to you? "I don't remember having any mantras or symbols, except that I would obsess over anything twin-related, I would read every book I could get my hands on, just to feel connected to the whole thing. I did have a thing from a very young age where I tried to make other girls fill in for my twin. I had a Patti Playpal doll that was my size, and I told everyone we were twins; anybody was eligible to be my twin just by having the same first name or the same birthday. Problem was, nobody else felt the same way. Again, abandonment and rejection". What particular areas of interest - in the effects of your womb story - have you been working on? Handedness: I have always felt like my sister and I amalgamated with each other, a fancy word for resorption, she is within me all the time. It's actually very comforting...I'm never alone! I am mixed-handed...not right handed and not completely left handed either. Sometimes it is like my sister and I are both operating at the same time. Anorexia issues and Overeating, using food as emotional support: It is interesting to note that my anorexia came on during that very significant watershed period at age 12. Prior to that, around 4,5, 6, all the way up to age 11, food was an obsession with me. I would very often eat when I was not hungry...but I had a deep abyss within me that needed to be filled up...and food did the trick, if only for a little while. Usually tremendous guilt would ensue after binge eating... I didn't deserve to eat, I was fat and took up all the space in Mom's womb..etc., etc Sexuality issues: Was attracted to females from a very young age, also attracted to males, but most often very feminine males... trannies were my favorite because they were the amalgamation of male and female that I craved...the three of us back together in the womb, where we belonged. I love gay men and want to be around them, not necessarily sexually, but just to love them in a sisterly way". Were you surprised to find this work, tell us more about how you discovered it exactly? "I stumbled on Althea Hayton's womb twin site one night...I won't say "by accident" because it really wasn't!! It was the cherry on top of the cake, as they say, because it was my reward for having gone through hell, not understanding anything and wishing I were dead... to have everything turn around, get answers to alot of questions, knowing I'm not alone, and most of all...glad I'm here". What's next for you? "I fulfilled my lifelong wish and became a Mom, I still love taking care of babies and seek out people who generally need me. I need to be needed!! But I don't let myself be used anymore. I used to be a huge approval junkie and I would do anything to make people like me. Not anymore! If people don't like me its their problem. I like myself, I know who I am and I do have people who love me. I will never turn my back on anyone who needs a helping hand... I believe in karma. That's really at the heart of my story... I went through hell, but I didn't let it totally destroy me, my soul... I'm still in one piece and I've come around full circle and I've had alot of good things happen to me. I'm somewhat psychic, which I believe is a gift that all womb twin survivors have...because our twins are on the other side, we always have a connection, and that's a great thing to have. I do a lot of research on womb twins, psychic phenomena, reincarnation, etc. I'll never get tired of finding out stuff...everyday I find out something new, even if its a glimmer of something...it usually leads to something even bigger and more mind-blowing". Indeed! Thank you for sharing so much of your story with us, we love to hear how transformational it is knowing exactly what’s wrong so that you can heal it…all with thanks to Althea Hayton for establishing this syndrome and its healing path, despite the fact the world, and most of the therapists in it, are for the most part clueless or resistant to understanding the effects of womb twin loss. Let’s hope Complicated/Prolonged Grief Disorder becomes a diagnostic code in the DSM-5 this year so proper diagnosis can be made, and improper misdiagnoses may be avoided, that would be a good start!